Creative outlet

Today it rained....
its cold.. and for the first time in i cant remember if ever. i woke up sobbing from a dream. first i was sobbing in my dream and then i woke up sobbing and couldnt shake it... Rob held me and i buried my face in his neck and cried till i couldnt move, or breath.... i had a dream my 14 year old son died, i wont go into details on my blog but it was horrible and before he died in my dream he asked me if i wanted a lock of his hair to carry in my pocket with me. much later i finally woke up... really i didnt wake up or at least shake it till about noon even though the dream shot me outta bed at 6:30. i could not shake it and i sobbed without being able to stop off and on all morning. needless to say about 7:30 i climbed into bed beside my boy and brushed the hair out of his eyes and softley spoke to him as he slowly woke up. i held my ear to his chest to hear his heart beat... and he knew i was not myself.. without telling him anything other than i had a bad dream he let me lay there a few more minutes on top of his comforter and whisper a conversation with him.

Outlet yes i needed one... it was cold and raining and i couldnt garden and move heavy rocks to feel better..... so i dragged out my paintings and found a couple.. o.k. a few i started 23 years ago in high school and finished them today.... this one is a mermaid ( duh) i started it in watercolor and hadnt ANY detail just shapes and color basics... so it was fun to go back and add some new techniques. 23 years later.

thanks for stopping by.... ill post more fun art outlets later this week.