Men are from.....

Yup i believe that men are from a place called Grey Matter... ( aka the brain) and women are from the Red planet ( the heart) i know that God intended this so that we would rely on eachother to balance and compliment... but so help me Father of Blessed Jesus... i didnt get it today... i missed the mark so far it aint even funny. i tell hubs i am off to gather provisions and clothing for the family... i am dressed in my spring dress with my hair in a lose bun.... Hubs tells me with a smile in his voice ( to soften the blow i am sure ) that i should think of getting a couple pair of pants... if you knew me you would know i wear dresses.. almost always. I feel like a girl in dresses.. it is good.

Pants? what??? then the other blow.... with a smile in his voice...once again hubs says.. how come you dont wear your hair down? i like your hair down..... soooo. anyway... i can see him struggle in his grey matter and i am wounded in my Red planet... i blurt out something like this... " is there anything you like about me?""" and the baffled look in his eyes tells me, that he has just learned he just gouged me,,, and i dont feel like looking any where but away.
i glibly ( if that is a word) finished up my biz and he with a perky voice says how about if you and i have a date tommorrow and we will go shopping for you together.... my heart sank into the red planet goo.... and i know his grey matter was looking for a redeeming way of making it o.k. i felt terrible and i am sure he did too.

I have learned today that my wounded planet can withstand a storm... even storms with grey matter in them. that God is working in those places that i feel... and he is haviang me step away from feelings all the dang time and look at truth... cause truth is not a feeling.... unlike like p.m.s. which is one raw feeling after another truth rings true.. it resonates even when you dont want it to.. it looks and sounds like rationality. but when your hair is in a bunn and your spring dress is soft yellow you dont want to look at pants and hair styles without hair clips... but God whispers to my stubborn ear... listen you... that man over there cares about your red planet and you need to tell him you know it.

FOrgiveness is funny... it is so much a grey matter thing that changes the red planet... i need to remember that obedience doesnt always look easy. but it is difficult to live alone on my planet... and i am not willing to do so over a stupid dress comment.. so tonight after Hubs comes home from Worship Band practice i will let him know that Grey matter is a messy thing. i am thankful that Rob can say that certain outfits and hairstyles on me delights him.. i have just got to get over the delivery of such messages... that will come in time,,, after all its only been 20 years.